Praying for a quick painless recovery

Today’s message was exactly what I needed. I’ve shared my physical ailments publicly, I believe our mind is part of our body. I prefer to call our depression and/or anxiety physical illnesses as well, by doing so in my humble opinion, it removes the stigma.

This past week stirred up my depression and my anxiety; our 4 year custody battle is over (we were granted 50/50 custody), my ex-husband ignored my calls and texts, he wouldn’t allow me to speak with our daughter, he removed all her electronics, she too was unable to call me.

Unable to support her and lift her up as she was grounded was painful, I wanted to be there for her and I was unable to do so. Loving our children and knowing they’re hurt, feeling helpless is a horrible feeling. As these past 4-5 years have been a dark painful part of my life, this week immediately took me back to how hopeless I felt. My depression was so severe I tried to leave this Earth, I’m alive by HIS grace. I’m unworthy of HIS forgiveness, but I’m truly grateful for the gift of each day.

Being able to understand the “pause,” as you so eloquently stated, helps me today. As opposed to the feeling of loneliness, despair and sadness, I normally attached myself to, it helps to know the reason. My pause is a time to reflect and seclude myself to be present with our Lord. To find a lesson through this pain, to learn to appreciate His love for me, even though I do feel shattered, unable to glue myself together at times.

Thank you for your loving kind daily inspirational messages. I know you reach thousands just like me who are broken but try to be a better person to honor our Father.

May my pause bring me closer to our Lord.
Possa la mia pausa avvicinarmi a nostro Signore

Broken but trying to use crazy glue to keep me upright
Dr. Marta Chipres